It’s hard knowing how to be the kind of friend I need to be for Cindy right now.  I try to tell her dorky stories and keep talking about my silly little problems that she is always so great to help me solve.  But, I ache.  Underneath the day-to-day conversations, we ache together.  All of us are in so much pain.  I ache for things to go back to the care-free happy way they were, I ache for my friend who is slowly watching her love slip away from the world every single day she wakes up. 

Curt and Cindy are an amazing couple!  They are soul mates.  They truly deeply madly love each other without abandon.  I prayed for their kind of love when I was a teenager.  I desired so strongly to find a man I could love as much as Cindy loves Curt.  Curt had a lot to do with me falling in love with Mike.  They share many of the same character qualities that are so incredible.  Who can imagine the pain and the agony life is putting them through!?!  It’s like Romeo and Juliet realizing that one of them is poisoned over and over again every single day, with no chance of waking up from the nightmare.  It goes on and on.  I think about what it would be like to be Curt all the time.  I would try to psych myself up by saying, “This is the ultimate human challenge.  Can you take it!?!”  Sort of like an endurance race, except there is no reward for the suffering and sacrifice at the end of it.  It seems all for naught.  What the hell?  Who should ever have to experience this kind of torment? 

Curt is the most compassionate gentle humble guy out there, who would never look down on a soul or not offer help to someone in need.  None of us are exempt from this heartache; excruciating pain hits us all at some point or another in life.  It’s the way of the world, our human condition.  And yet, we fight for the good we know exists, for the beauty revealed to us in the little things, for the hope that tomorrow will be better.  Please bring peace to us in our tomorrow.  Some way.  Some how.  We keep breathing for it.  God, I beg of you to hear my prayer!

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*My blog is a great little online scrapbook for the kids, but, from time to time, I may choose to share with you all some of the harsh realities we are facing, if I feel good can come out of it.  Then, when the girls look back, they will not only see all of the fun things we did, but also understand a little more of our story…